Why don’t you trust me? This is what He said to me. I wrestled with an answer. All I could say to Him was, ”I don’t know how. Lord Jesus, show me how.”
It was a great challenge for me, as on one hand He had said to me one thing and on the other hand people around me were suggesting something else.
There was so much noise, not only around me, but my own thoughts seemed to challenge His great voice with in me. I had a huge decision to make in my life. One that I was wrestling with because all I knew was what I had done for the last seven years and I knew deep inside of myself I didn’t want it anymore. I was looking for a way out. I knew there were options, it was simply a matter of taking the leap of faith and following His lead. When I did, that leap of faith paid off and I saw a path, one that would lead me out and into a new beginning.
God has a plan. This I know. This I believe, He has always been there with me my whole life; in everything. He has been there in the times of the highest of the highs and in the lowest of the lows.
Recently I was reminded by my Uncle Dan, that everything I have set out to do I have been successful in someway or another. Success isn't measured by what you have, it is simply completing the task of what you had begun. Some may suggest that it's a cop out for those who fail, but the those who have achieved any kind of accolade in their life will surely tell you, "I failed often. I failed more than once."
It was important for me to question myself and seek my truth to the question that God had asked me. I asked myself if my lack of trust was because I felt alone, that no one truly stood with me and supported what I desired the most at this time in my life? I asked myself it if my lack of trust was because I didn’t see great financial success of all that I have accomplished in my life making movies? I asked myself if my lack of trust was because of how my relationship had come to an end and my hope for reconciliation hadn’t happened?
Finally I asked if my lack of trust was because of what God had shown me hadn't come to fruition? The it came to me, I didn't lack trust, because I had faith. I believed in Him. My trust was there, it simply had to grow. I needed Him to water it and nurture it. I needed to seek Him and rely on Him more and more and more. I had to listen and obey and when felt prompted to do something, all I would have to do, is do it. Step out in faith. Trust in Him.
And Jesus said unto them, Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you. - Matthew 17:20 (KJV)
God our Father's word is the promise. God doesn’t have to say to you, "I promise", after He has spoken to you, because what He has said is His promise. We simply have to trust in what He says to us.
When you hear Him speak to you and tell you He is going to do something believe it. Trust in it. Have faith. I know when He asked me the question He really wanted me to think "do I or don't I". And He asked me because I was asking this of myself. It took me sometime, but the moment after asking Him to show me how to trust Him it came clearer to me as the day went on. I did. I do. I just have to walk in His promise and be absolutely patient.
God’s word is final and it will come to pass, because this is His will. All we need to do is trust in Him and let our faith grow daily knowing that He who is in me(us) is greater than he who is in this world.
I am reminded of this daily, as well that Jesus overcame all things and this is a testament to God’s promise.
So when God speaks to you, do everything you can to trust greatly in what He is saying, because His word is His promise to you. If you happen struggle then close your eyes and focus on Him, and rest knowing that He loves you and is always on your side.
Thank you for reading.
Peace and love.