Updated: Feb 2, 2019
And he sent his only begotten Son... - John 3:16
Through out my life I have been fortunate to recognize and see the gifts God has given to me. Recently, I have been given the gift of freedom and was able to release the guilt that I had carried for many many months, possibly even years or decades. This guilt was tied to feelings that I was unworthy, that I wasn't enough, that no matter what I did for others it never seemed to be enough.
I imagine how God must feel. He is trying to reach us, talk to us, let us know that He is here with us, but the world seems to have this strong hold on each of us, that challenges this truth that He is with us.
Today it came to me that I have been chasing a dream all this time and the dream has never worked out the way I envisioned it. However, I recall to the scripture that I wrote about recently: For I know the plans I have for you, declared the Lord, plans to prosper you, not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
(Again I am reminded of the dozen times it has come to me over the last year and a bit. It's up to me to believe and receive that the Lord is speaking to me.)
No matter what I face in my life, I must trust in the Lord and what he has set aside for me. Each of us needs to do this more and more each day. The more we exercise trusting in Him(God), then the easier it becomes to do so. This is a daily action we must take in order to see His great works in our lives.
There is a vision I have of God vertically above me and before me laid a path (His plan). This path is a horizontal path which leads me in a straight line to where he wants me to go. Along the way it may bend and curve (which in my life it has), not because of his doings, but because of my choices. There is no need to feel guilt for these moments, I simply have to realize and recognize were I have veered off and that I must get back on it.
I must look to him, repent (which is a good thing; simply repent means we acknowledge our miss steps) and take a step forward in confidence, knowing that we are loved by our heavenly Father. That all is okay!
In this vision, not only is God above me, but He is all around me. He is beside me, behind me, and in front of me. I have even had a vision of Him standing at the end of the finish line, encouraging me to keep moving, His hands wave me forward and arms are open wide to receive me with a hug at the end of the journey. This image keeps stepping forward in faith, knowing that he is there to catch me if I fall, like a parent to child taking their first steps as a infant.
What I also see is Him above me, moving with me and every step I take there is a little gift, a gem, a stone to turn over, something for me to receive, He hopes I recognize that it is from Him. These gifts are planted ahead of me, like seeds, where there is that same hope, that I will see them and welcome them into my life. These are the blessings He has for me.
With every step taken, is a step in faith, because I know He wants something great for me in my life. Not only does he want me to learn something about myself, but about Him. About us. He wants our relationship to grow stronger every minute of this day. This day which he has made. He desires for me to know Him intimately. To know His great love for me.
It may seem like a silly concept, but really what this vision means to me is that every day, in every moment, in every area of my life, God has planted seeds or little gifts for me. It truly is up to me to recognize them, see them and pick them up or better yet receive them with an open heart.
In this I know that I am well on my way to becoming the man he created me to be. The man he designed me to be. To live the life He planned for me, with out compromise or falling the opinions of those around me. To hold steadfast onto His promises to make good of everything in my life. To take those times that seemed like I couldn't bare the pain or the disappointment and make something beautiful and good from it.
This is my Father who loves me. He loves you too. He desires great things for you, like He does for me. Each of us are special to Him. We simply have to make Him special to us. We can do this by acknowledging His great works in our lives, by thanking Him for what he does. By seeking Him with all things. In all things.
Thank you for reading.
Peace and love to you,