Updated: Mar 8, 2019
...but the just shall live by his faith. Habakkuk 2:4
All we have to do is just live by faith. When I read the above line it dawned on me how important it is to continue to live by faith. To take step after step with nothing more than faith. To take that faith and put it into action through what I hear the Lord speak to me. To live by faith and not by what I see or by the out come of what I do, but by my faith in God and what He has planned for me in my life.
Recently, I had applied for a writing program in the states, which I had hoped would come to work out, well it didn't. Like many times in my life opportunities had come and gone. Some, were meant for me, while others weren’t. In it I had always believed that God had a plan.
I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future - Jeremiah 29:11
I have shared this verse in the past and it comes back to me as I write this. In this moment I thank God for the reminder and proclaim that no matter what happens or what the outcome is of any situation, my faith in God will stand firm. I know that He is with me, He is for me, and He has a plan that is specifically designed and mapped out for me.
Yes even in the darkest of times and as I seem to find myself being pulled out of a season of this darkness, (when at a time I felt like disappearing and leaving behind a life that felt broken and unfixable) I came to see the moment where I needed to lean in that much more our Him.
I asked our Father, Jesus and the Holy Spirit to show me a different lens of how to see my current situation, my past and future. A new way to perceive my life as it was. I desired to see the circumstances that I was in, the emotional roller coaster I was on, the fears I had of being alone, and the love deep I have for this woman (whom is no longer apart of my life), as well as the direction to which to go; all of it differently.
Today I received a great revelation. I happened while reading through Job. He was sharing with his friends how he was cast out by God and given to his enemies. His life was in shambles. I could relate in the sense, I too at times felt like God had left me to suffer this great loss and face the darkest times of my life where I felt so alone and confused. There I was like Job, still I had a glimmer of hope in it all.
It was this moment that I felt great joy and laughter come over me because the revelation was from these words
Job said, "Also now behold my witness is in heaven, and my record is on high." - Job16:19
A wave of love and joy and laughter had washed over me. I was filled up and couldn't help myself, because I had been reminded of one thing:
"What is meant for me is meant for me. What is meant for others is meant for others. God has a plan. He is taking care of me. He, Jesus, the Holly Spirit are my witnesses and my life is already recorded in Heaven."
All I have to do is walk it out.
I had been reminded by him this past week of who I was and my walk with him, and how no matter what had happened in my life, I always had this attitude that if it was meant to be it would. I had always set out to do the things I felt I was being led to do and no matter how it worked out, it was what it was. The goal was finish what you started and encourage others to do the same.
I have never been the type to measure my success by what I have or what I own or how much money I have in the bank. My uncle reminded me of this a few days ago. He said “You are successful and you are a special guy. You have always finished all that you started."
God keeps the revelations coming and the reminders coming. I had lost my way only because I had lost myself in something that I could no longer manage or handle. It wasn't for me to do so. To save another person, only God can save, only Jesus can save, only the work of the Holy Spirit can save. I can share the word and who Jesus is, who God is, who the Holy Spirit is, but it will always be up to the individual to make the call. All I can do is pray for them. God has to do the rest.
As for the way in which I shall go; I go outward with more faith today than I had yesterday. As a mustard seed grows, so does my faith. As roots run deeper into the earth, so does my faith in God. As I keep moving forward, my trust grows greater in God and what he has in store for me.
Fear dissipates daily. Love replaces it and the dream and thoughts of an expectant end grow brighter with each step that I take.
Yes, I choose to walk this way. I choose to keep my eyes set upon, God our Father. It is my will to do His will in this world. It is my desire to be the man He has designed me to be. That He planned for me to be. I must let go of everything I know and receive all that He is in me.
Remember Christ spoke of faith. He encouraged those who had little to none to have more, and he healed those that showed their faith in him.
He is willing. Are you?
Thank you for reading.
Peace and love to you